What to Do When You Can't Find God
For centuries, Christians have wandered through wilderness seasons — walking through valleys of shadow and silence, facing loss, confusion, and what feels like divine absence.
You might not be in that place right now, but for those who are, it can feel lonely and disorienting to realize that something which once felt natural or accessible has changed — especially when that “something” feels foundational to your faith. When your old ideas about God, or faith, or the way you’ve always connected to the divine start to crack or shatter, it can feel like losing your footing entirely. But maybe, that shattering isn’t obliteration. Maybe it’s more of a breaking open for something truer, more spacious, and more real.
In this episode, I share five reflections on what I’m learning in this kind of season: I’m learning to (1) welcome wonder (2) practice presence (3) hold the tension (4) live my questions (5) let uncertainty become my teacher.
Thought-provoking quotes:
“My idea of God is not a divine idea. It has to be shattered from time to time. I’m still learning that my ideas about God are not divine.” - C.S. Lewis
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves.” - Rainer Maria Rilke
“The unknown can become both a teacher a kind of sanctuary — a place where you’re invited to listen differently. You start to notice what’s always been true but often hidden beneath the noise: that you are being held, even here.” - Taylor Joy Murray
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